my past two month as student

lately i felt like something wrong or missing somewhere..i never know..i still cant get what it is all about..
my spirit gone away with wind..then comes back to me. until now i cant update my blog to share my experience climbed Grandfather Mountain. but i am still find my time to write a story about that.. because i dont want to lose all my memory without sharing it..

3 weeks ago..i was nominated in Student Body Nomination. i went to the nomination. looked how they handle the selection of the Student Body Bureau.For me it was great moment because i am still baby in my college..and i was nominated as Discipline bureau..but thank to Allah..my name was not selected as part of the Student Body.
you guys must think why i dont want to be part of them..it just because of my friends who was selected, so busy with their own study and the same time busy with the Student Body meeting everyday..and have to arrange the student. how can they divide their time..? everyday the president will forcing them to send the proposal. haha...with my brain that already full, how can i complete the task? that why..i felt happy... wink*

i feel little bit stress with my study... suddenly i cant focus as well like for first time i went into this college..maybe because i am so worry about my result..everyone wish to get flying colours. one more important thing is about the debate? should i participate..? i know this is best chance for me to discover my talent. but BUTTERFLY,CROCODILE IN MY STOMACH!!! i hate it so much!!! how can i remove,eliminate all this feeling? nervous..cant focus..worried! hmmm... i just hope i can be like one of my lectures..that can talk easily without any wrong and perfect??

help me! >.<"