hanya mampu senyum

Percintaan mana tak dilanda dugaan kan? orang yang sudah berumah tangga pun dilanda ribut lagi kan orang yang tiada ikatan yang sah ni... hmmm.. apa yang kalian akan buat seandainya si dia yang kita sayang meminta izin kita untuk memiliki seorang lagi gadis? kata orang, kalau sudah menikah.. si isteri mengizinkan sang suami menikah lagi satu...disediakan payung emas di syurga... insyaAllah.. tapi andai lah yang meminta tu sang pakwe yang meminta izin untuk nak couple lagi? 

aku sendiri memikirkan soalan ini, adakah sang gadis dapat mengizinkan si arjuna memiliki seorang lagi dan harus berkongsi kasih dengan orang lain? hmmm... (wondering) bertapa cekal nya hati sang gadis itu andai dia bisa mengizinkan atau membenarkan niat si arjuna itu.. si arjuna memberi janji untuk berlaku adil? dapatkah seorang insan yang lemah menjaga hati 2 insan lain yang daripada berlainan perangai dan latar belakang..? 

bagaimana agaknya keadaan gadis itu yang mencari jawapan dari soalan itu...

andai sang gadis mengizinkan:

• dapatkah sang gadis berkongsi kasih tanpa ada perasaan iri hati @ dendam?
• dapatkah si arjuna membahagi kasih seadilnya?
• dapatkah sang gadis terus menjadi diri yang asal @ menghilangkan diri setelah kasih nya dirampas oleh orang lain?

andai sang gadis tidak mengizinkan:

• adakah sang gadis dianggap pentingkan diri? 
• tidak mustahil andai insan yang lain itu terus memburu si arjuna.. si arjuna mula keliru..akhirnya sang gadis ditinggalkan...
• mungkin sang gadis perlu tarik diri..sebab mencintai seseorang tidak semestinya memilikki..

maafkan saya andai suatu hari nanti saya  undurkan diri.. untuk melihat kebahagian awak disana...

maafkan saya sebab saya tak mampu berkongsi kasih dengan orang lain.. biarlah saya tak memiliki awak..dari saya harus pendam dendam dalam hati.. :) 

salam kasih,,

wassalam...

great moment with full of new experience (2)

assalamualaikum...
tonight i think i want to continue my story mory about my practical time..Actually this is my second story and now i already finished my practical.. KPJ Johor Specialist gave me a great experience that i can never get from everywhere.. anyway i would like to thanks to all staff in Johor Specialist because helped me during my posting.
surgical ward gave a big impact for me. this ward full with patient who had accident and fracture everywhere..how can i do any procedure to them...haha i must double careful. i dont want to multiple their pain..

Then i went to medical ward. Here i met with one wonderful mother who take care of her son for almost 6 years in this hospital. his son has quadraplegia. Quadraplegia mean paralysis for four limbs, both hands and both legs. but his condition so good..i am happy for him. second one is i met with one old lady who is admitted because of depression and low appetite. for first time i met her, she is so talkactive. but suddenly i dont know why, she quiet and i think she already in her own world. dont want to talk, eat even move also. but our health care provider try uor best to help her. so as a progression, she able to move again, talk and eat. i hope for her family to be happy with the improvement.

Then my sister's father in law admitted in ward. because of uncontrolled diabetic. and bilateral padel edema. from that time, we discovered many thing. He has a fluid in his lung that can cause difficult to breath. alhamdulillah.. the fluid already removed from his lung. so as a moral, we need to take care our meal. we need to take balanced diet for our health. even though we never think we able to get many type of disease, even we care so much about our health. because miracle can happen anytime..

important moment that i cant forget.. i had to suffer in flu for almost one week. how can i do my job with a running nose, headache and cough. it is so great. but i know i had to face it.. because of that i need to wear mask to prevent my patient from infection.

that all for today... i want to sleep because of running nose and headache, i cant stand anymore to type many story...sorry...;) see yan next time..
wasalam...

great moment with full of new experience (1)

alhamdulillah...it was already four weeks for my practical. time passed by without my notice. my first practical at J Specialist Hospital. it is a big hospital. what make me happy when i came here is this is my place of birth and i finished my time to accompanied my late grandfather. so many changes here. i am so happy even though i have to face with many tough situation. for first 2 weeks, i was located in general ward. i was in charged for six-bedded. my friends and I were so surprise with this situation.

every morning need to take a report from staff who in charged night shift. For first day, i was so blur and confused..coz i can't understand every single medical terms that came out from the staff. but from that moment i never skip the report..every medical term that i didnt understand, i will refer to dictionary to understand the condition of my patient. After done my report, we were went into the room to change their linen and serve the meals. 

from day to day, time passed by.. I faced with patient who has skin disorder. Her condition was so weak when her first day admitted in my ward. She asked me to help her to take a bath, but she unable to move well. so we decided to do bed bath on her. it is mean we will help her clean herself on the bed. I was prepared my equipment. When i tried to open her cloth, it already stinky to her skin and make her felt very painful. i started to smell smelly things from her body, i need to wear mask and gloves. i cant elaborate every single things, but her skin full of pus and redness is everywhere.

example for skin disorder disease.

 i wiped her body gently. after that, we applied  calamine lotion to help to reduce redness of skin. after wiped her body, she felt more comfortable. Next day, she was isolated in single room . I went into to take a look her condition after we applied calamine lotion. it works. but it causes her to feel very painful. all the pus came out. some part of her skin was so wet, it will slow the time to recover fast. for almost one week, we took care of her. but we dont know why, some part of her skin getting better, but the skin that the pus not there at first time, it suddenly there, such as her face and head. we were so dissapointed. after that, she was transferred to another hospital that have specialist in skin, to help her to recover well. i really really hope that she able to survive with her condition. She still have small kid that still need her love and care. 

i also hope that i still can help her. this was great moment that i never forget easily because i was the one who discovered her condition. last but not least, i will share my experience for next update. >.<" take care guys. take care your health also! dont forget! wassalam... 

my past two month as student

lately i felt like something wrong or missing somewhere..i never know..i still cant get what it is all about..
my spirit gone away with wind..then comes back to me. until now i cant update my blog to share my experience climbed Grandfather Mountain. but i am still find my time to write a story about that.. because i dont want to lose all my memory without sharing it..

3 weeks ago..i was nominated in Student Body Nomination. i went to the nomination. looked how they handle the selection of the Student Body Bureau.For me it was great moment because i am still baby in my college..and i was nominated as Discipline bureau..but thank to Allah..my name was not selected as part of the Student Body.
you guys must think why i dont want to be part of them..it just because of my friends who was selected, so busy with their own study and the same time busy with the Student Body meeting everyday..and have to arrange the student. how can they divide their time..? everyday the president will forcing them to send the proposal. haha...with my brain that already full, how can i complete the task? that why..i felt happy... wink*

i feel little bit stress with my study... suddenly i cant focus as well like for first time i went into this college..maybe because i am so worry about my result..everyone wish to get flying colours. one more important thing is about the debate? should i participate..? i know this is best chance for me to discover my talent. but BUTTERFLY,CROCODILE IN MY STOMACH!!! i hate it so much!!! how can i remove,eliminate all this feeling? nervous..cant focus..worried! hmmm... i just hope i can be like one of my lectures..that can talk easily without any wrong and perfect??

help me! >.<"

24 hours = a lot of memories

without any plan..we decided to make one crazy thing.after took examination of DN 2101,my friends(zura & ziemah) and I went to KTM station to go to KL Central...we planned to go Masjid Jamek,without knew where is Masjid Jamek..for me, it was long journey with dull view..a lot of people around me..after arrived to KL Central,we took Rapid KL to Masjid Jamek..Rapid KL is small ,tiny,cute train. it only have two coach.
i love it! heheh..

then we arrived at Masjid Jamek Station..now i can see a lot of people!! and big market waited for me! suddenly my eyes became so big and like a button..too many choices. They all providing a lot of things such as shawl, clothes and others in reasonable price. maybe all of people in Kuala Lumpur knows about this place and maybe all Malaysian knows that Masjid Jamek have their own attractive.. what should i buy first?? we took around and around..went to pray at Masjid India..then went to Bata to buy a shoes..ran in the rain together..i felt like many birds flied on my head...felt dizzy..but i still continue my journey till the end..

first experience that we had with promoter from one of communication services..They asked us to accept their simcard for FREE?? but it is postpaid...can they imagine how come students like us able to pay bills?? if we not used the line but we still need to pay RM50 every month? so funny.. we tried to settle with them until they surrendered. haha..gotcha! after that, we took a walk around the night market to find some food..my stomach already like matching band..we got a packet of tissue from the seller because he just donor one ringgit to one lady who suddenly came and screamed " tumpang lalu!" what?? blur*

just forgot about the lady..now i want to talk about foreigner. Malaysia has so many place that can attract foreigner to come..we just met with two lovely foreigner. they helped us to take our picture..Along the way to arrive at KLCC..we through many ways with a lot of vehicles. We enjoyed with crossing road with the proper ways. signal "tunggu!" and "lintas!" HERE WE ARE! We arrived at KLCC with full of successful by walk!!
long day..long journey will prove that we were really really really tired! thirsty ! hungry ! sleepy ! we went to Masjid As-Syakirin, near with KLCC.. we cant sleep in the mosque. so we need permission from the person who in charge in the shift. One person who responsiblity gave us the permission..until the end,we never know about his name..hehe..he addressed us as " Kak Long" so funny.. he gave us the toto and pillows to sleep! we had a rest because tomorrow we had a long journey waiting for us.

the time passed through.. we woke up with new hope..that we can finished our journey. YES WE CAN! we leave that "abg long" then continue our journey..with a bottle of water and an apple as a breakfast given by "abg long" thank you " abg long!!!" 830am we went to hunt KL Tower..we never know the place..just followed the leg and road. We followed ziemah's way. She brought us to jungle tracking to track where is KL Tower? so tired! 9.35am we already arrived at KL Tower! but unfortunately Zura and I cant went up to see the view from KL Tower because of the cloudy and haze..we would not paid RM38 for cloudy view, so we decided to come here again to fullfil our mission..

We walked to KL Monorail to take train to KL Central. from there we went to The Mines at Serdang..dream for cruising in the boat around the lakes. next time, we will come back! watch out!
then we went back to Nilai and back to our hostel...our journey had done for this time..this is the best moments i ever had.. thanks sis..i love you guys so much!

                                            ♥  one journey one destiny a lot of memories ♥

cardiac problems!!!

i need some space to think..to breath..to diagnose..to discover..to recover my cardiac.. 

sometimes i think i want to go far from here..dont know why..i want to leave my town...just travel to anywhere..

sometimes i think happiness not belongs to me..but i know one destiny for me..

when i need somebody to comfort me..he go away..

my blink star already gone..just the dust left for me..i need you my star..seriously i tell you..

once you flying infront of me..i cant see another star..

but i know i cant see my star anymore..i know it hard to find another star to replace you..

i know my old star always beside me..memories are unforgettable..

eventhough my star far away..i just want to look him smile always..

can i catch my star again?

new life in college..

I still cant believe have to survive my life at Nilai for 3 years..
01.01.11- i arrived at Nilai at 12.30pm by bus..why we have to transfer here to further our study? Why all this thing happen..let me follow back to Johor..Along the journey,so bored..at my left and right only green thing i can see..Long day..long journey...my family followed behind the bus..
took a leave for one day was not enough for me to settle all things..
i went to my hostel at Nilai...what i like about this hostel is the location is near with my campus..so it easy for me to go before class begin..but i LOVE most is my old hostel! i miss my hostel at Kempas Johor..so comfortable..and i can took a bath nicely..but my new hostel quite okay..not because I cant be independent but i have to make myself more comfortable..to survive for almost 3 years here...
The price for all things is quite expensive compare to my lovely place.

yesterday i had a nice memories...at 12pm we went out together..we went to KTM terminal..we went to Seremban by train...a lot of people inside the coach..KTM provided coach for ladies only..but i saw a man! wooo! he never felt embrassed with other ladies? okay...haha..After arrived there..we took a taxi to go to Seremban 2..walked around in Jusco..then we came back home safely..Alhamdulillah..

i had a lot of new memories and great experience when we discovered new thing...i tried to adapt with this new environment...wish me luck..